Tiny Flecks of Color

One of my new year's resolution was to blog more often, more often is defined as at the very least twice a week... and ideally every day... though let's be real (it's already January 6th), I know with school that wont happen. But we can try.

2010 was a year of a whole lot of challenges. Challenges in relationships, in the work place, in school... some challenges have been fruitful and positive, like working my butt off to get a C+ in Research... thank God. Some have been painful, like the end of things Mr. Bean and I were passionate about. There were long nights, and sad realizations about friendships. The year saw the heartbreak of broken relationships, the joy of 7 new babies, and the in between? where did it go?! Overwhelmingly, I am not sad to see 2010 go. I am trying not to be too negative, and in reality I am trying to not dwell on the parts of 2010 that hurt. There were a lot of great things as well... and all in all it doesn't really matter any more, I only have 2011 to look towards.

2011. Holy cow! How... ? When... ? I don't even know.

2011. There is so much promise, so much change on the horizon. It feels like for the first time I am who I have been trying to be. I'm not sure if that's coming across the right way... its just that in 2011 I will finish school, I will be somewhere where I want to be, I will be a better wife and hopefully less of a crazy person. I will strive to be more well rounded, a better friend, a better sister/daughter/family member. I foresee the opportunities to do more of what I want to do and less of what others want. And I don't mean that to be selfish. And I certainly do not want to seem lazy or self serving... but in 2011 there is so much hope on the horizon. My friend Janine at Looking for a Blue Sky put it really well writing, "There's a sense of optimism about this year that I've rarely felt in the past at the dawn of the new year."

I mentioned before in this post that I was once advised by a priest to find one thing each day that is a gift, to slow my always-looking-forward mind and appreciate what happens today. No matter how cruddy the day, the week, the month, the year is... I need to find something positive. Even if its going to bed at night and the fact that the day is over.