Tiny Flecks of Color

Ever have a day where you are just fed up with the world? Just fed up with all the crud people give you - or all the love they seem to hold back from giving you. The times when you feel unacknowledged, under appreciated, and certainly under paid. No one likes your ideas, no one likes your gifts, and in general you just feel like no one likes YOU.

Yeah... hello today.

but you know what?

I like what I do. I like my ideas, my gifts... and I generally appreciate having a positive attitude and a overall happy outlook on life.

Thanks Big Guy for making me, me. And for liking me too.

I have a final in a little over an hour, which means I need to get my butt in gear and get on the road. BUT! I was just thinking about my weekend... which started off really fun helping a family friends 8th grade daughter and her friends get ready for the 8th grade dance... and then Saturday spent the day with my mother in law - we had a ton a fun... it was freezing but we went to the tulip festival, saw the "American Gothic" house and just had a realy nice day - and then on Sunday we attended a Baptist welcoming ceremony for my cousin-in-law's baby who was super cute, and then had a Mother's Day youth night with kids and their moms. It was really nice. I am exhausted but I spend all those events with my husband, we had fun, and I made some great memories. Oh ANND! Not trying to brag, but with our new Prius (yes we got a new car... car accident, faith, oportunity, craziness, etc. were all included in this decision) we did a TON of driving this weekend (D-port, to Donnellson, to Pella, to Donnellson, to Davenport, to LeClaire, and back to Davenport) we only filled up once and got over 43 miles to the gallon... WOW! That's enough to make me smile forever! PLUS... so far, no acceleration problems. ;)

Of course you cant appreciate the rose without the thorn...

AND there was a thorn, last night about 9pm. It was aweful, and honestly doesnt even need to be repeated here. Because THE POINT IS...

That I can look at this weekend and pull out the wonderful moments and in the face of disrespect, anger, condescention, hatred, cruelty... whatever... I am strong and able and I am absolutely in love with the life I lead because of the beautiful memories I will carry with me from this weekend's experiences. And all that other junk... can shove off because I do NOT need that stuff to bring me down. I'm going to spend my time being happy, and sharing that happiness, and if any one WANTS to be upset, or read into things, or allow their life to be consumed with anger and their own self doubt... well then by all means, go ahead and do it! Just stay away from me. ;)

Ok...

wish me luck on this final. Personaliy disorders, mood disorders, DSM-IV, music therapy, and more! Woo hoo.